As much as some MS'ers like to go around saying I may have MS but MS doesn't have me (I collect all sorts of random quotes like that on pinterest, I understand) I will firmly state here: I disagree with that one.
MS has me and always has. The day I lost my vision was the day I knew I had no power over MS. Maybe it wasn't a battle for me because I grew up deaf. I was already "disabled" by society's standards so hey, what's another diagnosis?
I'm sure more are on the way haha.
It does not mean I am a wimp, it means lesions reside in my atrophied brain or spinal cord. Wherever it chooses. I am a host and the MS lesions are parasites. We co-habit together. Play nice, I say but I won't beg. Begging doesn't work.
I ignore MS as much as possible which is probably why I don't talk about it that much on my blog but I still have MS, or rather it has me firmly in its grips.
Right now I feel as if my body has been split in half. My left side hurts, my right side does not. In other words I have a pain syndrome only on my left side. Yes, I do.. from the tip of my still broken little toe to the top of my head.
It's been broken a lonnnnng time. Heal thyself, toe!
Speaking of muscle spasms - I woke up with one in the oddest place. The muscle behind your ear - the one that covers the hard bone. Mine has contracted and won't let goooooooo. Ooooouchhhhh....
So if you're wondering why I haven't been around to your blogs n' such... it's because I'm tired. I'm fatigued beyond belief.
Mentally and physically.